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      Comment on: Stuck in Hell....

      Posted in stuckinhell on Jul 29, 2011

      Wow, well, things are progressing rapidly! I have just been offered an opportunity from someone I know. It's not in the same area of US I wanted to stay in, but it will work, & probably quite well, at that! Now, how to do it (get there, etc...) I'm going to need some charity for that... Been praying that I will get what I need to make it happen. Basially need $250 for transportation, Would like to get a prepaid AT&T phone & $50 monthly unlimited plan ($80 phone), as well as a laptop, since I cannot take my desktop with, as I could probably get my old job back upon my little one starting school as soon as we get to the new state. Soon as that happens, I can work, but would need really decent laptop. I could also use some health & beauty services, as well...
      OPPORTUNITY!

      Posted in stuckinhell on Jul 29, 2011

      SOMEWHAT GOOD NEWS! I have a MAJOR OPPORTUNITY! I have been offered a place for me & mine to stay! Someone I know. Family home, great environment, etc... Excellent job prospects, schools, etc.. I am very excited! It is like transitional shelter, & I have a year or so to get on my feet!

      NOW FOR THE SOMEWHAT!!!! I'm going to take Amtrak, except that I don't have any ticket $. So I am starting an email campgaign... will post more later...
      Comment on: About Lisper501

      Posted in Lisper501 on Jul 19, 2011

       in response to montedreams...   God bless you Monte, & all the other hurting, struggling souls out here... PEACE HEALTH & HAPPINESS TO ALL!
      Comment on: Help with Rent, Security Deposit, Utility Bills

      Posted in Starshine on Jul 7, 2011

      Thank you so much for sharing your wealth of info...time is not my friend right now & I've exhausted most of what I was able to come up with, to no avail... I appreciate your effort to help others ;)
      Comment on: Stuck in Hell....

      Posted in stuckinhell on Jul 7, 2011

      Guess there wasn't much short nor sweet about that~ Basic gist is, I need to relocate in another 2 months, & having been researching diligently to find the resources that can help me to help myself. Where I am at geographically just isn't a very good place for someone in my situation to be. It's one of the top 3 most expensive places to live in US for the past decade, the state has a MAJOR deficit, & the IL & Chicago political system has had so much major corruption, what "community services" are left here are so overloaded, & no one seems to be able to help me for one reason or another. Despite having 5 years of bi-weekly check stubs from a client, as self employment income, I could not get subsidized child care because I worked from home. They believed that I should be able to work from home while caring for my FIRECRACKER of a 4 year old. Doesn't work. It did the first 2 years, but not now. Forget the housing system, 10,000 on their wait list for almost a decade. Wait lists are phenomenal. There is no public transportation in the suburban area I'm in, so that doesn't help my transportation problem, & is too difficult to get around here without transportation with a 4 year old. I tried to put all pieces together myself, but will never get anywhere here. I am looking to relocate to NE Atlanta Burbs/NE GA area... Will need assistance to do so, as I am penniless & homeless. Will need to be involved in a comprehensive type program that includes transitional housing/shelter, child care, public transportation, (I have a van but needs transmission) & availability of Pre K for little one & local College/University for myself. If anyone has any knowledge of any programs/services that can be of help, I appreciate any heads up~
      Comment on: About Inspiration

      Posted in Inspiration on Jul 7, 2011

       in response to bitter...   Wow, sounds similar to one of the many different scenarios I've been enduring in the past couple years... I don't know what to say, except that if I find an answer, I'll be glad to share... right now, I'm just stuck.... down & out.... without a clue....
      Comment on: When Putting God First

      Posted in positive thoughts on Jul 7, 2011

      I am now bawling. That is beautiful & true, & I have always done so, but really just have endured years of garbage & have managed to stay as strong as possible, chin up & having faith, hope, in everything under & over the sun, but really, the light of the end of my tunnel is distinguishing, & I cannot keep my chin up any more, the weight I've borne has just become too great... I want to do something desperately to help myself, but seems like one brick wall after another... Still trying to keep the faith & pray~ hard to do after all these years... My strength is diminishing rapidly... Thanks for sharing The Good Word....
      Stuck in Hell....

      Posted in stuckinhell on Jul 7, 2011

      Long story as short & sweet as possible. Sexually molested 2 times by older male family member when 8 & 15, 2 rapes by 2 other men (the first ended my virginity @ 13/14, & the second was a date rape & I was sodomized, @ 22 yrs. I was domestically abused in late teens/early 20's by father of my first born, 23 year old daughter, had found out I was pregnant with 2cnd daughter when I was leaving him, in '90-91. Single parent from 1991 to present. Had met & been with most recent domestic partner on & off since 1995. He had emotionally & mentally abused & manipulated from 1998-2002, from 2002 until 2009 I endured all types of domestic abuse from him & left a few/several times. One of the many times I had left him was in the beginning of 2006 (was to be the last, we still had not been married, & had no children together). Found out right after I left that I was pregnant. I was devastated as I had finally had hopes for future. I decided upon abortion, but he convinced me that this time things would be different. Well, that was BS, as the abuse was worse from middle of 2006-2009 than it had ever been. He started smoking crack cocaine during my pregnancy. It didn't stop, until 2009, the year the physical abuse really got bad because of his drug addiction. From 2000-2009 I lived in very rural community on 20 acre farm, 80 miles from friends & family, so was pretty much held capitve. In 2009, he tried to run me over w/truck, while I was on phone w/911 due to he had just been throwing me into the hall walls. There were several bad physical abuse incidents that year. So now I was about to be a single parent again, at 38 yrs. old, (after being a single parent 23 years) with a 2 yr. old. I have moved approximately 18 times since 2000. Approximately 12 times since 2006, when my now 4-1/2 yr. old daughter was born. My 4 yr. old has moved with me approx. 8-10 of the 12 times. In 2007 he sexually molested my older daughter from the first father, 2 times, within a week, right after her 18th birthday. In Aug. 2009 there was an escalating situation with him over a period of a few days. His physical actions against me at that point were endangering my child, so I called 911. Went through a bunch of hell in 2 different county court houses, 80 miles away, with criminal charge & Order of Protection. Barely obtained legal assistance (his economical abuse of me was almost & still is worse than any of the other stuff as & have no way to fend for self). Have an Order of Protection that expires in October 2011. I do not have a driver's license & was forced to drive without one the past decade. Have a mini van but it needs a new transmission. I was self employed from 2000-2009. From 2006-2009 I worked while caring for my little one. My abuser allowed internet to become disconnected & I lost my job. At the time I had him arrested & got the Order of Protection, I was already 3 months out of work. Our little girl has my last name, & no father listed on birth certificate. I have been homeless since 2009. I had went to stay in FL with minor child the winter of 2010-2011. Had to come back as ran out of $. I cannot find a job, child care, transportation, housing, etc... I am living in a (hardly) partially finished small basement. Broken 30 year old tile floor, bugs & spiders galore. I share my bed with my 4 yr. old. The water heater, furnace & garage door & storage rooms are surrounding us. Our bedroom is our kitchen is our living room is her play room etc.... I am stuck in this basement with this child. Cannot get the assistance I need from state to get child care, housing, etc... Have been on a homeless shelter wait list since May 2010, my 4 yr. old & I have been seeing licensed domestic abuse therapists & advocates since fall 2009. (I'm in suburban Cook County, IL... I am not even a # here anymore. Just lost my food stamps & medical, as the state claims I am no longer an IL resident, despite me living here & reporting since spring of 2010.) I have had to, despite everything, "play a game" with abuser in order to get some kind of $ in order to barely survive. I have a child I am responsible for, & cannot financially support. The DV therapist says 4 yr. old shouldn't be alone with her father. I need to relocate to somewhere else, where I can get away from him & get on my feet. I am a college educated, intelligent, bright woman with major goals & dreams, but cannot even say I'll make it to tomorrow. I am battled out. I have no more fight left. I need to get the hell out of this basement, & provide a life for my children & myself. My oldest daughter won't even talk to me, & if she does, it's abusive. I need to relocate, & have big plans, but no means to do so. I have chosen a community, pop. 150,000, that has a good transporation system, a State University, excellent pre K system for my 4 year old, much better community services, which is safe & affordable. I have a friend in the area, but they can only assist with very short term housing & personally, I want to get on my feet & make it on my own, as the whole purpose of these goals is to become self sufficient & independent. I have sacrificed 23 years of myself being a single parent, working my ass off, & struggling to provide for my children, (never ANY child support...) I have endured approximately 14 years or more of collective abuse in every which way imaginable, & now I am starting all over again, exhausted, unable to do ANYTHING for myself, & have a 4 year old. I really just need to cut loose & go somewhere where NONE of my abusers know I am, where I can get a leg up & become the woman I should/could have been a long time ago. The life has been sucked out, & each day looks more grim, & I fear what I'll be up against once this Order of Protection expires, if we are still here "in the clutches".... Down & out...... Thanks for hearing my story...

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